2 months in

On Sunday, it will be 2 months since my injury. 

I've had my moments of depression, of course, but I've done pretty well at keeping positive.  It's not going to change anything by being depressed, so I'm just setting new goals, based on where I am now.

I ran across my 2018 fitness goals and there really isn't much I can achieve on there now.  So I'm writing new ones.  I'll let you know when I have it figured out.  I think I'll firm that list up after another week or two at PT.

I'm stuck in the boot until the end of October, at least.  I'm allowed to wear shoes at home and walk carefully.  I have to start learning it somehow.  Yesterday at PT, the doc gave me some new things to work on.  All of them seem like they should be so very easy, and on my right leg they are done without thinking about it at all.  I can't do any of it on the left leg at all.  I was standing on a 3 inch (~7.5cm) platform with my left leg.  I had to bend that knee and put my right foot on the ground, while keeping my hips level.  I've lost so much strength, and have so little dorsiflexion, that I simply can't do it. I tilt my hip to get it down there.  Stand on one foot for 20 seconds.  Just stand there on the flat ground.  I can't do it without holding on to something. 

I only have a limited number of visits left that are covered by insurance, so I've cut back from 2 times per week to once a week.  I've got a list of things that I'm allowed to work on at home.  Those include all the things that I couldn't do yesterday.  I've made a list and will create a little check list. I have grand plans to do those things at open gym 4+ times per week and at home when I can't get to the gym the rest of the time.  I'm throwing in some other open gym goals as well.  So I'll be at the gym a lot again.  (I've been going, but only half as often as I had been going).  I'm excited to ramp it up again. 

I know that recovery is LONG for this.  I'm following a professional Crossfitter with an achilles injury, who, at one year post surgery, can only do a half calf raise on that foot.  I know it's going to take awhile.  I don't like it, but I accept that it's a darn slow process.  To not accept it lets the defeat and depression creep in.