6+ weeks post surgery

It's been a few weeks.  Little has changed.  I am still in a boot. I have one wedge left in it.  I still have crutches, but I am able to use my foot to sort of walk now.  Partial weight bearing, as tolerated. 

The focus in PT isn't solely on my foot these days.  There is a lot of hip mobility stuff, because when you are in a boot for 7+ weeks (so far) you never really put your leg behind you.  It's all in front.  Think about it.  Even "walking" with a boot keeps your knee in front of the other one.  It's a weird limpy hobble.  And my hip is SORE.  It's sore from not using it the way it's meant to be used and it's sore from the mobility that I'm doing at the gym to combat it, and it might be sore from the PT, but they really have me do a lot less than I do at the gym. 

This week I'm putting more weight on it at PT.  I've been doing stuff without the boot on.  I shift weight from one foot to the other, which is painless.  They had me stand on a block of foam and try to balance and that was really hard.  I've also been doing calf raises, but seated.  You know, when your standing and you rise up on your toes?  Those.  But not standing.  And my calf was incredibly pained the next few days.  It was the first time I've used in in nearly 2 months and it doesn't know how to work anymore.  That simple motion had me worried that I'd re-injured it.  Really, that was how much it hurt the next few days.  It's feeling better today (not great), and the PT said that it's pretty normal, but I noticed that he did scale back what I did there yesterday, and he spent a lot more time on massage and manipulation. 

We talked about getting into a shoe in the next few weeks.  I have one wedge to go still and then a week in the boot at plantar neutral before I go to a shoe.  And with how sore I am this week, I'm not in a huge hurry.  I DO want to be in shoes again, but not in such a rush that I hurt it again, or have trouble.  I'm a little afraid of it, honestly.

I've been hit and miss at the gym.  I'm not even making excuses not to go. I get a good workout when I go, but the coach has to spend so much attention on me that I feel self conscious.  I can't get out or put away my own equipment because I need both hands on crutches.  I've been only going about 2 days a week.  I've set a goal to get there 4+ from here on out.  I have to get over the hurdle.  I was in the committed club twice, and I'll get there again.  I hate that I've missed it for nearly 2 more months.  This week I went twice and the off days I went to PT.  So, it's not like I'm doing nothing. 

Since I'm not at the gym, I've put a little more focus on food.  Which might end up being the silver lining in this fiasco.  I'm forcing myself to get some control in the kitchen.